I am going to say something that is hard for me. I don't want to grow up. I am an adult but I don't want to grow up. I don't want to stop playing and I don't want to start being boring. Some of those associations may not be fair but it's the emotional response that I feel.
Why is it important for me to say these things? Because I think this is at the heart of my problems with money. Being good with money will mean I am grown up.
I need to change my vision of being grown up in order to change my relationship with money. I can be fun, I can play and I can be weird and wacky with money and as a grownup. I just need to make myself see that.